why must i be the last one to know...
why no one is willing to tell me what's going on
why my tears are rolling down my heart
why can't the pain just go away
why can't i hate you for loving you
why i haven't been feeling that happy when i was with you
why i don't feel like that lil' princess 3 or 4 or maybe 5 years ago
why do i still read your mails and smile to myself
why am i living in a world of myself
why do i have to disappoint everyone
why am i useless
why am i bitchy
why am i slutty
why am i still carrying a touch for you
w...
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..y.
thanks for the best birthday present you have gave me.
period.

i love rides. those with cars please bring me out often. i promise to be a good girl. :)

The magic of retail therapy:

1. Chases the sadness and anger away
2. Releases a satisfaction feeling
3. Makes you me feel pampered

New stuffs added to my wardrobe:
1. "FCUK for a fortnight" tee
2. "I'm neither straight, bisexual or gay, i'm just slutty" tee from new urban male
3. "for my next trick, I'll need a condom and a volunteer" tee from new urban male
4. giordano shorts
5. LVER 3/4 pants

Pending Items:
1. Nine West bag
2. A|X tee
3. Butterfly skirt from topshop
4. Black 3/4 pants from esprit
5. Adidas Cap
6. "FCUK on holiday" tee
7. Green spaghetti top from Playlab
8. Charles & Keith sandals
9. Fling bag
10. Dior Wallet
11. Furla Namecard Holder
12. giordano 3/4 pants
13. LVER black pants
14. LVER pink butterfly shirt
15. Guess "Brazil" tank top

and there goes my pay....

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10 Things I hate about MYSELF

1. To be broke
2. To stay at home during weeends. *I wanna go momo... pouts*
3. To strike a conversation with my mum *always ended up unhappy*
4. To make my feet hurt *walked from chinatown to clarke quay then to town*
5. Becoming a workaholic *i miss work now...*
6. Stubborn *i'm miss someone...*
7. Too fortunate *long list of never-ending shopping list*
8. Too much tea break *im getter fatter and fatter... i hate myself to core*
9. Not able to cry out *i'm depressed but tears aint falling*
10. Making things difficult to let people understand me *especially my parents*

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Things are quite bad now. I feel I'm no longer part of the family. Was it my fault? Or was it they aint understanding? well, i don't know. staying under one roof but everyone seems to have their own stuffs to do. sis and me in the studying room chatting online, parents at the living room watching tv. this doesn't seem to be a home to me. just a shelter. whenever i try to talk to my mum to let her know how my life is but we ended up unhappy. she wasnt interested in listening. ask fot her advice whether the top in the magazine is nice anot she felt irritated. so be it! i did try to improve our relationship. but she doesnt want to, then wad for i care! complained i wasnt home to accompany her and my dad. i dont see why she should complain. im home but we aint talking. what's the point. they might think i'm unfilial, wings are strong start to fly. i really don't know what i should do. she thinks i should stay home, don't go out. then i will save money and am a good girl. then what's life? or rather where's life? ever they wonder why im always out. coz i find people who are nice to me. they talk to me. they listen to what i wanna say. they won't be irritated with me. they will crap with me. shopping makes me happy. clubbing brought me fun. drinking chases all my trouble. so when will they understand me or probably know who am i...

i'm just a spoilt, depressed brat who enjoys life and doesn't bother about the future.