everyone has to adapt to their new phase of life. so am i. but did i do it the wrong way? i admit i have changed. seriously i dunno its for good or for bad.

i consulted friends about what i have done. i justified why i did that too. i learn to think these days. however, i realised after thinking things goes worst. i had to force myself to do even tot i don't want to. do you call that mature now?

im trying to let certain things off. holding it for 3 or 4 years isn't it easy. esp what i got in return. hence, letting it go isnt easy too. im avoiding whatever i can. but i still want to hold back some. at least a tiny tweeny portion of it. memories are there yet they kill.

i dont talk much to my parents. they ask i reply. tt's all. they nagged i showed them im unhappy. i dont talk to them. i show them my black face. i dont give a damn! why cant they be more understanding? after one whole week of work, i deserve to go out and enjoy! and not asking me to stay home, nonid to spend money and can save! for my age of twenty, i dont think i need to save yet. or maybe i should. but not by restricting myself to be stuck at home.

can someone tell me why this year is so screwed up?

haven't been blogging for a long time... lately been tied up with work, chill and club.

last last week - was absolutely fun. wednesday dinner at marina south steamboat. chilled at gotham. then supper at ms. friday event at sentosa. after tt went down ms to meet sa. dbl o had long queue so changed venue. went dxo - the new club at esplanade. den suppose to go to another place at international building. got lost. in the end sat at mac had fries and a nugget. chilled out at seletar dam with birdie, sa and nicholas. chatted alot. stoned alot. saturday went to cut hair then rot at home. sa called then we went out with birdie. headed down to dbl o. drank 1 jug of dunno wad la.... den 2 shooters of whiskey.... finger guessing with sa, birdie, gim, birdie's 2 other frens. damn... i drank alot then... mixture of whiskey, gin, volka, bourbon (i think so la).... den i KO. until next day wake up.... only can remember some of the stuffs....

last week - monday dinner at en dining, sa, birdie and me challenged ourselves with fermented bean. does not taste tt bad la.... still edible.... night still early... went coco latte.... chilled again... drank cosmopolitian.... dan home... tuesday dinner at bugis with sa, had pasta mania and a good chat too.... dan we went to bugis village and bought a few stuffs.... luckily i dun haf cash with me if not i will ended up with even more... lastly went topshop, sa love this brown dress while i love the bikini.... gonna get it man.... waiting for pay... friday then event at TP... was boring until Dannie beatbox... sth I'm fascinated with.... then left for phuture... was boring.... then again we went to had supper at ms.... bak kut teh again... saturday event at sentosa, early in the morning man... dan after tt went hm heavy rain... stayed hm waiting for rain to stop... poor sa waiting for me in town... in the end i met her up in the late afternoon... walked around... stupid me forgot to bring my keys and atm card out.... *darn, guess having sales man* snacking at taka square... window shop again... then dinner at scotts.... shop again.... saw this nice clutch at far east.... gee.... took cab down to ms... realized the charge for dbl o cant waive... so we went to en lounge and chilled... after tt hm....

this week and next week are suppose to be a resting period. but guess what! besides i didnt go to club or chill, i have been staying in the office quite 8pm or 9pm to work! yeah... been pitching for a few jobs, planning confirmed jobs. my sore throat is back apparently... guess too much talking... have to talk to the suppliers from different places, discussion with my manager.... gee... i feel so grown up...

im beginning to like my manager....but guess she's a bit discriminating the guys? i dunno... i seem to be having a privilege in the office, or is it i havent done anything wrong yet? lol... i dunno man...

but more or less im learning things... going meeting with her... seeing some really unreasonable ppl... and a few company who really work with small budgets and want the sky... lol... most importantly i love this job coz i get to visit the chocolate factory!

i had so much chocolate and fun! i want to work at the chocolate factory! i wanna make chocolates... geee.....

after summarize, i got a big sin to commit. i have been eating a lot! gee... i need to exercise...