lost track of life.

the worst class in DBIT
oh well... lecturers are pissed off with my class... reasons being
1. Almost the whole class is always late
2. Most people don't do tutorials
3. Handphones ringing during lectures and tutorials lesson
4. Never attentive in lectures and tutorials. Always talking among themselves
5. Always give last minute work
6. Always arguing which team should go first presenting
7. Few people showing attitude towards lectuers
8. Half of the class are hard to please
9. Not very cooperating among one another
any points negative can be find in this class. how am i suppose to tell them to change? heard of this saying "a leopard will never change its spots" so is this class of mine. as a class rep, all i can tell the lecturers is get used to it and just don't bother. (",)

because of the fella who jumped at Bishan Mrt. i spent the whole afternoon in town doing window shopping. wanted to buy a skirt but they don't have the color i want. i am so into skirts these days. partly because of the weather. skirts on rainy days! this way my jeans won't be soaked 'coz i don't wear them during rainy days! yeaH! i am feeling tired. prolly not enough sleep. and guess what? havent started my revision for CB! gotta go sleep soon. ciao~

p.s. CB stands for Consumer Behaviour

i dropped my tooth today. after staying shaky for about 2 weeks it finally got out. what a relief. don't have to worry each night whether will i swallow it down when im asleep. lastly, my tooth was concluded that it wasn't my wisdom tooth. although it was the last tooth in the row, but wisdom tooth doesn't drop by itself and it shouldn't be so small like mine. just think it is just another baby tooth dropping. hee (",)

To chase away those blues, i went shopping. Wanted to get the mambo polka dot skirt but it was sold out! i am so disappointed and sad... in the end i decided to get the topshop polo tee and luckily it wasn't sold out. (",) in addition, i bought a skirt from iora. decided to wear it for my CSB interview together with my pink blouse. feeling delighted now!

Topshop Polo Tee

i just simply adore the sleeves and buttons. hee.

Skirt from Iora

monday blues...

i give up. i don't know what to do.

this is ken's favourite song at the moment and it's my favourite song at the moment too. at the moment, i think ken is humourous, optimistic and nice to chat with.

Let It Out
This is ours
We made it with our everything
Something real
As real as it could ever be
You gave me all of yourself
I gave you all of me
Now set it free from yourself for everyone to see

I'm not afraid to let it out
I'm gonna show you how I feel
I'm not afraid to let it out
Who cares if you don't like it
If you don't like it

Go ahead
You know just what you wanna do
Don't deny
You feel it 'cause I feel it too
Take a look all around
You feel it in the air
From the sky to the ground
I feel it everywhere

I'm not afraid to let it out
I'm gonna show you how I feel
I'm not afraid to let it out
Who cares if you don't like it

I'm not afraid to let it out
I'm gonna show you how I feel
I'm not afraid to let it out
To let it out

Who cares if you don't like it
If you don't like it
If you don't like it
Who cares if you don't like it
Who cares if you don't like it
Who cares if you don't like it
Who cares if you don't like it

This is ours
We made it with our everything
Something real
As real as it could ever be
You gave me all of yourself
I gave you all of me
Now set it free from yourself for everyone to see

I'm not afraid to let it out
I'm gonna show you how I feel
I'm not afraid to let it out
Who cares if you don't like it

I'm not afraid to let it out
I'm gonna show you how I feel
I'm not afraid to let it out
To let it out
To let it out
To let it out
Who cares if you don't like it
If you don't like it
If you don't like it

finally i went ssdc to enrol.

i want you as my birthday present. period.

Jazzy Kitchen

House Speciality 3 : Jellies
Keep chilled and have it as dessert will be a perfect idea!

time to update a lil on my life

i have been going to school on a regularly basic - haven't skip any lesson yet. so i have lots of free time in school - breaks! people yearned for it when they don't have one but me? i dread of having it! 2 hours break only can go to clementi or holland village. but the weather objected us to go. always raining. so always stuck at food court 6. no matter how much time we spent there talking and slowly eating, time still pass very slow. decided that in further gotta spend time usefully - go to gym, or for a swim, or shopping. heh. oh wells. most of my sweeties and darlings are busy with their projects now but me? i'm still enjoying. no projects given to us and this is the 3rd week of school already. tutorials also not much to do. talking about tutorial, I WANNA COMPLAIN BEN CHO! idiotic moron. i did my tutorial and he checked on my work. then he gave me that kind of spastic look, "like that only ar?". what's your problem?! i tried all the questions even i don't know how to do i also attempted. what the f**k i got. i'm not expecting compliments but can't he use his bloody asshole brain. if i ever know how to do all the questions i wouldn't be attending your freaky boring tutorial! i would stay at home. his attitude is bad! TREMENDOUSLY BAD! what a lectuer. damn pissed off with him. let's don't spoil everyone's mood. back to projects, electronic commerce project will be given out to us tomorrow. hopefully i won't be too stressed 'coz group members are really "pro", full of ideas, very arguementative, start to do work early till late too. that's why now i can enjoy i better do enjoy and don't rot. enough of school.

beside school...
1) i'm into reading now. good habit right? currently reading a whole lotta love. quite nice story
2) i learned how to do cross-stitch! yes, finally after so long i managed to learn the techniques. have not enough threads gotta go buy and finish it. promise to post it up when i finished
3) i made jellies. sounds yummy right? my classmates are gonna have them as deserts for tmrw's lunch! birdie will be the first one to try!!!
4) go jogging recently. gotta start to train for my NAPFA test

what i wish to do...
1) make chocolate chip cookies, shepherd's pie, pan-fried dory with mango and angel food cake
2) go swimming. miss swimming
3) enrol at ssdc. and learned driving, faster get my license
4) prepared gifts for friendship day

people please make yourself free on 13 August 2004 (Friday)
your presence is needed to celebrate my 19th birthday. the venue is still not fixed yet. might be phuture or chinablack or shanghai sally. any suggestions? further details will be posted soon. (",)

Jazzy Kitchen

House Speciality 2 : Baby Bites (Chicken With Vegetables Flavour)
Specially Prepared for 6 months onwards

have you ever see a rainbow in the night?
you will see one if miracles happen on you
and i wish miracle to happen on everyone around me
i want everyone to be happy

the secret of happiness is to make others believe
they are the cause of it
all sweeties, dearies and piggies
make up the recipe of my happiness!

I have not give you up
I really hope you can stop
Everything that is hurting you
Stop giving yourself up
I know no matter how hard I tried to help
As long as you don't help yourself
Everything will be futile
And most importantly
Don't let me give up on you
I care. I really do.
So let me help.

Jazzy Kitchen

House Speciality 1 : Marmite Porridge
Marmite is delicious when mixed with porridge. It is 100% Vegetarian and contains Vitamin B. Give it a try! It's yummicious! *thumbs up*

there was once a teacher asked her students to bring a bag of potatoes and a clear plastic bag. during her lesson, she told her students to write any unhappy event or any discouraging or painful times they had on each of the potatoes and put them into the clear plastic bag. they were supposed to bring the bags of potatoes along with them. put the bag beside them when they sleep. bring them to school. wherever they go, they must bring the bags along. soon the students find the bags very heavy and as time went by the potatoes start to rot and gave out a stench.

morale of the story: each day as we bear in mind those unhappiness and painful times, we feel heavy spiritually. everytime we feel that forgiveness is a gift to others but forgiveness is a gift one can give to oneself. so remember to present yourself the wonderful gift - to forgive and let go. (",)

Second week of school
A sense of pressure and stress is impending
High hopes and expectations
All pin on us
We are the benchmarks
Whom everyone thinks we are the best
Setting standards for them
I will try but no guarantee
A new group after all
Communication might be a barrier
But we must try no matter what
I'm willing to give in my best shot
Wish me luck peeps!

Let's make the best out of our lives
that's yiwei's msn nick
i asked him what does that mean
he told just do what you like
and that will be the best
so i asked myself
pondered with this question
what i hope
what i wish
what i want
love - missing piece of puzzle in me
sometimes i wish to have a dearest
someone to love me
to pamper me
to give me his attention
the stigma discourages me from falling in love
but love is strange and beautiful
is the reason that give me a little ray of hope
that i should try to love one more time
but who should i love
who can assure that i get his love in returns
who can give me eternity
who can give me happiness forever
where are you, my prince?

dearest friends:
what do you all want now? any dreams or hopes? tag at my board and let me know okay? :)

stand by me
don't let lonelines barge in
give me your hand
i need your help
i'm calling for your help
so don't leave me alright?

a new chapter begins...
i shall make my life interesting
try to love everyday i have -
mondays, tuesdays, wednesdays, thursdays, fridays, saturdays and sundays
not only i wanna make it interesting
i want my life to be meaningful too (",)
to mark this new chapter
i change my blog layout
got a motivation motto
and a new hair style!
cut away all my sorrows, sadness and bid him goodbye
i'm moving on great
and i start to love myself for it!

Cheerios

Sniffs Sniffs...

Ladies...

1. Hugo by Hugo Boss

Scent Type: Oriental - Fruity
Top Notes: Green apple, cantaloupe, water lily
Heart Notes: Florals, nectarine, peach, berry
Base Notes: Siamwood, sandalwood, amber

yours truly is currently using this...

2. Ralph by Ralph Lauren

Scent Type: Floral - Fruity
Top Notes: Apple leaves, mandarin, freesia, loquat, osmanthus
Heart Notes: Magnolia, linden blossom, boronia, orris
Base Notes: Musk

3. Eternity by Calvin Klein

Scent Type: Floral - Fresh
Top Notes: Mandarin, freesia, sage
Heart Notes: Narcissus, lily of the valley, rose, marigold, white lily, jasmine
Base Notes: Sandalwood, patchouli, amber, musk

3. Eternity Purple Orchid by Calvin Klein

It is a limited edition perfume.

4. Envy by Gucci

Scent Type: Floral - Green
Top Notes: Hyacinth, magnolia, vine flower
Heart Notes: Violet, jasmine, lily of the valley
Base Notes: Musk, iris

before using Hugo, I was using this!

5. Gucci Eau de Parfum II by Gucci

Top Notes: Mandarin, Btter Orange, Blackcurrant, Violet, Blackberry, Jasmine, Heliotrope, Cedarwood

I am deeply in love with this perfume now.

Guys...

1. Crave by Calvin Klein

"Address your inner cravings with Crave for Men from Calvin Klein, a fresh, aromatic fougère blend. Crave chills with icy citrus and brisk, grassy greens. As the scent cleaves to the skin, the subtle, spicy warmth of cardamom warms the composition with every heartbeat. Crave is a modern fragrance for the urban male, a scent for casual moods or light career wear."

I'm addicted to CK Crave... *winks*

2. Hugo by Hugo Boss

Scent Type: Fougère
Top Notes: Green apple, cedar leaves, spearmint, pine needles
Heart Notes: Lavender, jasmine, geranium leaves, sage, clove
Base Notes: Oakmoss, woods, leather

anymore perfumes to recommend?

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i bought this tee at SGD 29.00 and my friend bought something similar like mine in Shanghai for SGD 10.00. and it's from the original adidas shop! suddenly, i feel so cheated. omg... retail therapy is far more cheaper at china than in singapore!

i'm exhausted
delepetion of energy is fast
need to sleep at least for 12 hours
not kidding
there is just some problem dealing
with my biological clock and my body

today during FM tutorial, ben cho gave us a few questions to answer... simple questions... asking about our past, present and future... we almostly left some questions blank or answered it with one or two sentences. ben cho told us he was worried for us as we seem to be too quiet... not having confident in ourselves... i guess his words struck me... what he said was so true... i have no confident in myself... probably my confidence level only stand at 25%... talking about my past achievements... can't remember i did anything great within the last 2 years... maybe just a couple of distinctions and doing well in IT modules... when i saw the word achievements it only remind me of sth great... probably picking up a skill or acing in studies... i missed out achievements in life! great pals i made... onfidants who are always there for me... asking me about my present... describe myself... all i wrote was how bad i was... very negative adjective and so on... suddenly i couldn't think of sth good and nice to describe about myself... i got no motto in life... not easily motivitated... but often demoralized... dishearted... i don't why i'm in BIT course... probably i just think the term sounds cool... now the scary questions... my future... where i want to be 5 or 10 years later... i just want a happy family and a stable career... can't believe i wrote stable career... stable career are boring jobs... nothing challenging... is that what i want? -shrugs- ask about success... i wrote it doesn't matter to me (oh is it?) all i want is just simple life... then what about what you want to do in future... hoping to open a cafe (oh gee... then why am i in BIT?) my future is vaguely... obviously i have not been planning... whenever the word "future" is mentioned i will just say "don't know" and let it out of mind... i don't bother to think... i just rather let my time be wasted... seeig my minutes and seconds passing by without doing anything... i got no direction... i don't know what i like... what i'm interested in... i don't know whether you people who are reading have the same thinking as me... what are you going to be after pursuing your studies? what kind of jobs can you get? will you like the job in future? well if you haven't... better start thinking... 'coz i'm starting to think about my future too... hope you people can find the best future that you people wanted...

and i think today's evening is beautiful... the sky is so beautiful... with birds flying in the sky...

i am happy now 'coz i managed to convince myself to stay at home instead of clubbing although class starts at 1pm tomorrow... :)

Second day of school is still fine but it's getting bored...
purposely left home later than yesterday but i was still early! reached school at about 9.40am... met up with birdie at the station... and just couldn't foresee this was what happened...

Law Relating to Business & E-Commerce (Tut)
it was that indian teacher again! oh well... my class still has the habit of being late... waited for everyone to stroll into the room... the room was so small... 23 of us just gotta squeezed... so pathetic... so she gave out our LRBE notes... announced that she's going to be our PTN for this semester... then started to vote for our class rep., assistant class rep. and treasurer... omg... i was being sabotaged! most people voted me as class rep. and majorily won... gee.... i'm seriously not up to this post... i don't go school very often... do tutorial just once in a while... headache man.... there's so much things a class rep. need to do... why me? to cheer myself up i just gotta tell myself bear with it and there's cca points to earn so look on the brighter side but still... well... after the voting, had a very short tutorial... common sense questions... and dismissed!

so there was 1hr break... went to fc6 to have fish porridge with birdie and jiahui... we sat there talked alot... from driving to studies to future... and the time just passed so slow... time just passed slow when you are bored... it's always like that...

Financial Management (Lec)
Boring.... Absolutely boring... Fell asleep for like 5 mins... Basically it's just the lecturer introducing about himself and his expectations and some newspaper articles... *yawns*

then it was break again! 2 hours this time round... where to go? lab. lor... where else... went there to rot... surf net... too many breaks ain't a good thing... just drive us crazy... just lead us to have the temptation of going out and not coming back for the rest of the lessons... anyway, i survived.

Web Server and Network Administration (Prac)
Same old stuff... introducing about the module... telling us it's a must to buy the book... and notes too... then do a stupid quiz... and dismissed!

since it was so early... 4pm only... went town with birdie... we went topshop... haha... encouraged birdie to buy... in the end she bought 2 tops... saw a yellow shorts very nice and cheap... wanted to buy but no size anymore coz' it's a sale item... people must have buy the size i wanted... *curse and swear* then went to mango... wanted to buy this pink basic tee... they only have XS at istean orchard... it's a sale item... no wonder all sizes are not available anymore... then went to the one at takashimaya... tried the tee but realized it's not so nice anyway... colour too pale... made me feel like im a sicky person... showed birdie the guess skirt i like too... then we went lucky plaza to search for my fave watch... the pink strap wasn't nice! it's not dark pink... now im having second thoughts to buy not... the auntie say can gimme discount leh... *considering becoz' of this* and if i want to get i want the white one now... so yup... walked to hereen... couldn't resist the temptation of food again... in the end we got each a curry puff from old chang kee... heee... that's my dinner... happy but sinful... birdie quoted that "men do make sins"... oh well... i always commit a sin.. since when i have not.. lol... i went home later while birdie went to meet her boi...

on the way home...
lots of things filled my mind... i tend to think much when i'm on a bus or train... thinking about what a mess my life is... seriously i don't know what i want... can't make up my mind... wondering should i go for SMU or oversea studies at Aussie... wondering when should i go take my driving lessons... and the most messy part is probably... trying to be a good daughter but in the end i seem to be so rebel... told my mum i will be back early but in the end i go home so damn late... how i can get their trust? i dink i don't trust myself at times too... and also have i really move on? can i stand out proudly now and tell the whole world i don't love you anymore? i dunno... but i sense i'm getting better... moving on pretty steadily... haven't been thinking of you recently... but can that carry on i can't guarantee... now not sure whether am i having a crush over some cute guy... oh well... yea... he's cute, tall and good sense of humour... but he likes rock i like rnb... he likes biking i like shopping... u get the picture? or maybe he's just a way for me to escape from him... temporaily... letting him fade off from my mind... i really wish i don't want anything...

i need retail therapy badly....

First day of school
Supposed to wake up at 7am but i woke up 20 minutes later! No morning angels to gimme morning call todae... so sad... aiights... shall stop whinning... dragged myself out of bed, had a quick bath and got prepared... took 8.05am train... was direct to pasir ris... means i didn't have to change train at Jurong East... surprising i reached dover at 7.35am... i'm so proud of myself! reaching school so early especially it's the first day... oh well... alot of unfamiliar faces i saw at the station.... waited for bird... and in the end we were 5 minutes for class...

Communication Skills for Business (Tut)
Boring... and time passed so slow... gotta introduced ourselves to the lecturer and find a word to describe ourselves... it's really bored! after that, she started lesson... oh mine! i'm not ready yet... early in the morning and i couldn't absorb... anyway i dunno how crap she teaching and next week gotta hand in a resume write-up and bring a classified ad article to class... *yawns*

Break...
Had 2 1/2 hours break... so we escaped to Holland Village's N.Y.D.C. had Mushroom Madness and Three Amigos Rice... yummy... together with the yummilicious Goldmine Cheesecake and Boo Boo Cake... to celebrate the first day of school! lol... walked round Holland Village and back to school again...

Consumer Behaviour (Lec)
Worst still! 2 hours of lecture... and the lecturer really make full use of the time... finished teaching one chapter... anyway it's just simple basic...

LAstly HOME SWEET HOME!!!

hopefully tmrw is a wonderful day... any angels available to gimme morning calls tmrw? oh well... my tootpid morning angel had become a devil... lazy to gimme call anymore... so sad case rite... aiights... time for bed... nite!~

Happy Birthday to YOU!

Happy Birthday to YOU!

Happy Birthday to VIVI!

Happy Birthday to YOU!



*hugs and kisses*

Wild Wild Wet

Artistic Shot of the day

Photographer - ME! | Model - Vivi!

Girls rocks

Things You Ought To Know About ME
* I hate medicated oils. Medicated oils are supposed to make people feel better but they just has opposite effects on me. I will feel so sick whenever I smell them. Don't ever bring them near to me.
* Loves baby food, marmite and porridge. I'm still a small kid.
* I set my aircon temp. to the lowest. Although it is very cold but i like the warmth my blanket provided me each time. I love to cuddle under my blanket.
* I seldom fall sick and if i do 80% is because of gastric flu - the worst illness i have ever get. But this year my health seems quite bad, took me about a month to recover from a cough.
* I am very grumpy. I love complaining - it is just part of my life. It makes me feel so comfortable after complaining.
* I am very indecisive. I can't make up my mind.
* Now I prefer dating than to be in a relationship! Dating is more fun, full of surprises! :x
* Likes to bitch and know more about good looking guys. First thing to look at the guy is his smile, followed by the hair must be neat and not long!
* Currently under retail therapy - an expensive treatment. Still finding ways to pay for it!
* Am a "hot and cold" person. Mood swings often. Always emo. Cries when i'm alone. Often too.
* A 101% attention seeker. I love being pampered. I used to compare my parents' love for me and my sis. I am very easily jealous too. As a leo, I want to be the centre of attraction. I can't be lonely as I tend to let my mind go wild and feeling down after that.
* Never likes to be fair. Always tanned.
* Loves kids alot. They are so innocent. Will of course want my own kids in future.
* I don't like my rice to be dry. Always need lots of gravy on them.
* I think I'm weird. I love grilled green peppers, don't understand why alot of the people hate them! I'm scared of taking rides but I will still take rides!
* Likes tiara. Bought a plastic tiara from Aussie Dreamworld and my mum thinks I'm still very childish. But I really like tiaras.
* Can't iron or sew. Never able to get hold of these easy skills but I know how to cook.
* I like to shop for guys' clothes but now no one to buy for which is a good sign. I think I better not have a boyfriend or else he will be very pampered and I will be very broke too.
* Purple insane. I like things to be in purple but not really my clothes. Don't ask me why 'coz I have no idea too!
* I will curse and swear about how much I hate my sis for being such a bitch and irritating fella but deep down my heart I love her!
* Never able to know what I want. For instance, when my parents nagged at me and called me which time asking when I'm going home, I feel irritated and blamed them for treating me as a kid. But when they didn't give me a ring, I feel that they don't care about me anymore! Contracting problems happen often in me.
* Weak determination. Always failed to save and to diet! How can one resist the temptation!

that's all for the time being. if you all know what to continue please tag at my board. thanks!

Friends
i dunno how people gauge me as how good i am as a friend. sometimes the way i show i care means to people that i don't care and sometimes i do care but i just don't wanna show out.

got a friend whose dreams are dashed and i as a friend, can do nothing much to help. all i can do is to lend out a listening ear. this dream will never be able to fulfil no matter how hard he tries. but on the other hand, i got another friend who face just a little obstacle in life and he is giving up. i tried so much to help and after all i said it was futile. he thinks no one care or rather he doesn't care. everyone has ups and downs in life who doesn't. dunno what to write also. just feel so helpless and upset need a place to let out. i'm fine.

to all friends out there,
i love you all no matter what. i will try my best to help if i ever can. and most importantly, please take very good care of yourself. do not wish to see anyone of you get hurt. *hugs*


love,
jasmine

P.S. Those who sees this entry and doesn't feel happy about it can jolly well click the exit button. This is my blog where i let my feelings out. I don't give a damn whether you are happy anot. This blog concerns about how I feel and not anyone else. Thanks.

Last night was fun... it has been sometime i had seen my sweeties, namely Theresa, Birdie, Liyi and YunJiang. Dinner at Ramen-Tei. Not bad had spicy miso chicken ramen. Was very filling. After that, went over Pacific Plaza to queue. For what? Of course queue for the sake of queuing lah... no la... queue to go clubbing at blackie lor... Went to get a total of 12 glasses of housepours and we started our finger-guessing game. This time round the forfeit was to drink a mouth of rum orange, reason being the rum tasted like some chinese herbs. *yucks* After awhile, i went down to queue with sengyan and his friend, kenny while waiting for yunjiang's arrival... Shall spare the details... got into blackie, took fotos(not going to publish 'coz fotos not nice... lolx). Went to take drinks but they ran out of glasses! Geee.... In the end gotta look for glasses dan refilled after tat... soon liyi and yunjiang didn't like the music in blackie so ciao to PHUTURE! was so disappointed with phuture last nite... it sounds like some bollywood club... eeksss.... didn't dance much... oh... saw ah ser there too! woo hoo... haven't seen her a long while too... time passed fast... club closed. went home. came back to watch portugal vs. holland match! and yeah, PORTUGAL WON!!! woo HOoooO!!!! i knew PORTUGAL definitely would win... hehe... after the match kept tossing in my bed... couldn't sleep.
Slept for like barely less than 3 hours. Sengyan called. Thanks dude for your morning call! I hate it when i just got to sleep and i had to wake up... but i still dragged myself out of bed. Took bus down to TP to meet micmic, sammie, zhenny and wongy! Watched their TP Art Festival. It's nice. Went Jupiter Cafe but they din haf brownie todae... Damn! How can they do that! I visit them dan no brownie... so sad... and ken was so happy coz he couldn't have brownie and he doesn't want us to have brownie too... *pouts* so went biz elites to eat cultlet... was not bad... i think SP western food can fight with them too... not as great as what my cousin said... or maybe last time got his ex-gf eat with him... dat's why it's nice... oh well... couldnt be bother... after lunch, took bus (waited for so long) down to town... shopped round far east... saw a few tops i like but couldn't decide whether to buy anot... went Guess... saw the skirt i like... omg i really like leh... but it's $130 if i'm not wrong... dan went Tangs to buy godma's pressie... bought her a Biotherm lipstick... after that went over Wisma... and guess WHAT? i saw the WATCH!!! that GUESS WATCH!!! just that it's not pink in colour... it's white... i love it but i really gotta tighten my stomach and save to buy it. it costs $259! anyone to sponsor me? spare the rest of the retail theraphy process. in the end, bought a tee from urban and co. and a tee from zara. had dinner with sammie, micmic and wongy went home. after dinner cont walking again. went to try my Guess skirt and her Guess shirt again... hee... after that headed home. on our way we chatted... *shall be private and not be shared* :)
I enjoyed myself todae but there's more items added to my shopping list and i'm dead beat... legs are breaking... worst of all tired but couldn't sleep! *sighs*