Numb
I'm tired of being what you want me to be,
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface,
I don't know what you're expecting of me,
Put under the presure of walking in your shoes.

Caught in the undertow
Just caught in the undertow
Every step that I take is
Another mistake to you.
Caught in the undertow
Just caught in the undertow

I've become so numb,
I can't feel you there,
Become so tired,
So much more aware,
I'm becoming this,
All I want to do,
Is be more like me,
And be less like you.

Can't you see that your smothering me,
Holding too tightly
Afraid to lose control,
'Cause everything that you thought I would be,
Has fallen apart, right in front of you.

Caught in the undertow
Just caught in the undertow
Every step that I take is
Another mistake to you.
Caught in the undertow
Just caught in the undertow
And every second I waste
Is more than I can take.

I've become so numb,
I can't feel you there,
Become so tired,
So much more aware,
I'm becomming this,
All I want to do,
Is be more like me,
And be less like you.

And I know I may end up failing too,
But I know you were just like me,
With someone disappointed in you.

I've become so numb,
I can't feel you there,
Become so tired,
So much more aware,
I'm becomming this,
All I want to do,
Is be more like me,
And be less like you.

I've become so numb,
I can't feel you there,
I'm tired of being what you want me to be.

I've become so numb,
I can't feel you there,
I'm tired of being what you want me to be.

..::Linkin Park::..

Chua Jia Min Jasmine
DIPLOMA IN BUSINESS INFORMATION TECHNOLOGY STAGE 1A FULL-TIME


Your module grades are as follows:
Module Code Module Name Grade
BA0214 ACCOUNTING A
LC0714 WRITING FOR E-COMMERCE B
MS0105 MATHEMATICS A
ST0114 DATABASE MANAGEMENT SYSTEMS B
ST2101 VISUAL BASIC PROGRAMMING A
ST7106 WEB PUBLISHING B

so tat's da end of ma first year of poly life... cant imagine i get these grades... satisfied wif sum, disappointed wif sum too... tis sem got no dist... tis is real disappointment... budden wat to do... danks fer all ma "studying efforts"... and also ma projs... been slacking... shld haf count maself luckily fer tis kind of grades... *stones*

Quote of the day:
Education is the ability to listen to almost anything without losing your temper or your self-confidence.

i cant sleep till tis morning at ard 8 plus, been tossing in ma bed... wif a blank mind... i tried to cry budden all ma tears are dried... ma heart was broke budden no pain was felt. i was numb... altot i slept bud it wasnt a good one... ma mind keep having flashback like a rewinded movie... everything seems to be fading... and i seems to be changing... no longer yearn to step out of ma house... no longer wan to communicate face to face wif da outside world... im sho tired yet i cant do anything... i really tried ma very best to forget u.... budden u're juz so permanent in ma heart... like a tattoo which cant be washed again wif water... to get rid of u... it's juz like using acid to wash off tat tattoo.... da pain is indescriable... all i can say is im too silly... i put in da whole heart to lurve u... and tat's how i hurt maself... no way to be cure... no U-turn fer me...it's juz a dead end and im going no way... no matter how y'all say... ya...he's not suitable fer u... he's not worth it... he's a jerk...blah blah blah... i dun blame him fer hurting me... coz i find it maself! i brought it upon maself... i deserve it... lyk wat i told sa... der's forever no reason to be found fer loving someone... well... all ma fault... im such a bitch! i treat him too seriously... he's juz toying wif ma feelings... he din love me b4... he juz enjoyed ma company.... why da farking hell i juz cant forget everything... i feel like vanishing... why gawd is doin tis to me? wat wrong haf i done? pls.... stop torturing dis fragile soul........

Quote of the day:
What's love?

Fighter
After all you put me through
You'd think I'd despise you
But in the end I want to thank you
Because you made me that much stronger

When I, thought I knew you
Thinking, that you were true
I guess I, I couldn't trust
Called your bluff, time is up
'Cause I've had enough
You were, there by my side
Always, down for the ride
But your, joy ride just came down in flames
'Cause your greed sold me out in shame, mmhmm

After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wouldn't know just how capable I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Ohh, ohh, ohh, ohhhh, ohh-yeah ah uhhhuh

Never, saw it coming
All of, your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I realized your game
I heard, you're going around
Playing the victim now
But don't, even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave

After all of the fights and the lies
Yes you wanted to harm me but that won't work anymore
Uh, no more, oh no, it's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how to be this way now, and never back down
So I wanna say thank you

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

How could this man I thought I knew
Turn out to be unjust so cruel
Could only see the good in you
Pretended not to see the truth
You tried to hide your lies, disguise yourself
Through living in denial
But in the end you'll see
YOU-WON'T-STOP-ME

I am a fighter and I
I ain't gonna stop
There is no turning back
I've had enough

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

'Cause it makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
Makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
It makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

..::Christina Aguilera::..

yeah it's all over.... i surrender... i gave up on him... dun wanna sad all time... if even he doesn't want to be frens, it's find wif me... why shld i care! Gurls can survive w/o guys! im awake frm tis nitemare.... yeah... 3 Shout Outs!!!

hey peepz, do y'all miss me??? hee... yeah... juz got back frm chalet.

First day
Got there ard 6, den start marinating those chix wings...all danks to sa... whu dare not touch dem... hence gotta helped her. Start bbq at 7 plus, realised food wasnt really enuff so bird, sa and i went to white sands to buy some more... We gave Boldwin a birthdae surprise(da next dae was his birthdae). He was caught by surprised and touched... den took some fotos...maybe i'll post dem up laterz... muz get dem frm bird and ah foo... so guess in da end whu had cake fight? lol... it's worm and yun jiang... two small kiddies... :p erm... let me recap wat was interesting too... oh... our dear sa helped worm to peel off da prawns' shells... yeah... so sweet.... den at abt 3 plus, walked down to 7 eleven wif sa and zhen ji, supposingly to buy cup noodles onli budden dunno how in da end went back wif beer and black cat... BLACK CAT SUCKS! it's not smooth and dun taste nice... so in da end played heart attack loser gotta drink one slip of it... it was mixed wif coke budden still not nice la...

Second day
well... everyone din sleep.. probably juz caught a few winks... we took turn to bathe coz we are freaking sticky! went to haf breakfast at BK... bird and liyi left budden would be back later.. and da rest wen back chalet to sleep... woke up and supposed to meet yiwei at downtown east's arcade at 3... haha... and at 3 i was still in da chalet washing up... i was 15 mins late... he came all da way to pass me a nail clipper...lolx... aiights... tat's sweet of him... den met da others fer brunch at BK (luckily i din haf breakfast if not it will be BK BK BK) after tat, went to cycle... one of sa's slippers was snapped off... so sway... den after cycling went to da beach, sa and ah foo kenna threw into da sea...lol.... cool huh??? da rest of da evening was juz slacking rnd, bathing, watching tv... we had din at 10, sa's parents bought fer us... danks auntie and uncle... sa went home after tat... poor gurl got scolded by her mum sum more... after din, sent yunjiang's cousin to mrt station, she's still boarding abt how to tell her mum her bag was lost... another poor gurl...
since yiwei was so sweet in da afternoon, so i asked yun jiang to acc me to walk to his hse... to return him his nail clipper(meant to be a surprise, am i sweet too?)... and tis idiot... made us sat at da void deck fer so long... trying to be farnie... so he came down after checking his results and mine too... i managed to pass all bud no distinction tis time... sad... budden wat yiwei said was true lor... never stardee still expect wat distinction.... :\ so chatted fer awhile headed back to chalet, quite a long walk back... was telling yun jiang abt da past and giving her advice abt her and harry... i shall spare da details... liyi and xinyi were adi der wen we got back, and bird put us aeroplane again lor... da nite playing games and toking on da fone wif yiwei (used lexus's fone coz starhub)lol... at 3 plus... everyone headed to lala land....

Last day
Liyi woke everyone up, telling us tat we gotta check out at 10...erm... she wasnt tat good at waking everyone up...haha... so slacked arnd on da bed... den checked out and wen Mac to haf breakfast... and den headed home... not bad after all la... maybe next time we shld organise one again... going back to ma lala land... niteZ......

Quote of the day:
When I find myself fading, I close my eyes and realize my friends are my energy.

Love Is Pain
Ooooohhhh

Ooh why is love sooo much pain
So much pain
Sittin on the roof starin at the stars
Thinkn to myself how could i have fell for someone so hard
When all I was told was lies
Now that i think about it, it makes me cry....

To know someone I gave my heart to
Just tore my heart apart (ooohhhh)
A love that is endless
Why did his love have to start (Why did it)
Feelin the love I have for you just rushes through my veins
Why does love have to be so much pain (So much pain x3)

Memories no one can take away
The pain that I will feel each and every day
And its gonna be hard but I will pull myself through
I realize I will never get over lovin you

To know someone I gave my heart to
Just tore my heart apart (ooohhhh)
A love that is endless
Why did his love have to start (Why did it)
Feelin the love I have for you just rushes through my veins
Why does love have to be so much pain (So much pain x2)

So many nights
So many tears Ive cried (cried)
No one to be by my side
Stuck with misery and pain
You were the one to blame

Cuz it hurts to know
To know someone I gave my heart to
Just tore my heart apart (ooohhhh)
A love that is endless
Why did his love have to start (Why did it)
Feelin the love I have for you just rushes through my veins
Why does love have to be so much pain (So much pain x3)

..::Amanda Perez::..

CHOC ATTACK
Believe it or not, chocolate is good for you! Your choc bites stimulate the brain's feel-good chemical called serotonin - the same way exercise does for your body. So whoever said chocolate's heavenly got it right. Plus, a chocolate treat is just great after a stressful day. Just keep it a single small bar, not a whole tub full. Now isn't that good news?

well well... so anyone willing to pamper me anot? BRING ME TO CHOCOLATE BUFFET... yesh da one @ fullerton hotel... pleaseeeee..... i need to chill maself... ferget those sadness... blah blah blah... so, whu's bringing me? *winks*

Quote of the day:
Half the world is composed of idiots, the other half of people clever enough to take indecent advantage of them.

tiring dae... met jam at 1pm at yck mrt station... den took 13 to ecp... aiights... u all muz be wondering so how does he look like... he look like a kiddie to me! serious no joke... he looks like 14 years old rather den a 16 years old guy... so quite disappointed... machiam like going out wif ma younger brudder lydat... another thing is he's abt da same height as me... so short... and summore so quiet.... sighs... so was wif him awhile den ciao... ma heart took me to a place where ma mind had a flash of wart had happened in da past - Bedok Jetty... i dunno why whenever i go der sure cry one... haiz... dat place is juz full of sadness... so sat der and do some soul-searching... asking maself why i still wouldnt wan to let go... still wan to hurt maself further... maybe i like to torture maself... how silly i am... he doesnt even bother whether i exist anot! oh ma gawd... and i juz sat der and stoned... den took 14 to yun jiang's hse... by the time reached her hse, she finished her din... den she accompanied me to 85 fengshan to haf ma din... she was so excited 'cos harry reaching s'pore tml... luckily gurl... so stayed until 10 and headed home... now gonna bathe le... den tok on da fone wif yiwei... 'cos he complaining he's bored... *grins* ciao peepz~

Quote of the day:
Love can sometimes be magic. But magic can sometimes...just be an illusion.

NEW HAIRPENING
After 3 days of hiding at home, i finally stepped out ma house and went town to meet sa... she . . . was terribly LATE!!! hrmpf.... waited her fer abt 15-20 mins? had brunch at b.k den wen to walk around... fer me, it's window shopping 'coz no $$ but fer sa, it's shopping spree!!!! heee... den she suggested to cut hair... so i say okae lor... heee... so went to tis salon called Supercut, top level at Far East Plaza... service was good... esp when dey washed hair fer u... got massage summore.... woah~~~ POWER!!!! peepz der are quite frenly... decided to go back der fer hair treatment, dye and maybe perm... hey peepz, do u all tink i shld perm? budden when ma hair gets abit longer la... actually i dun mind to go der to wash ma hair often sia... hee... 'coz dey blowed ma hair until so straight.... aiights not those rebond kind of straight la... hee... sis was sho sho sho jealous 'coz she said ma hair looks so nice... lol... lalalaa....

At least, life is interesting todae... whole head felt lighter... neater... Ar bo i'm getting more and more no life!!!!!! So, sumthing interesting better happen tomolo to make ma life more meaningful! ciao~~

Quote of the day:
Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.

got bored... so wen to do some quizes... and here's wat i got...


You're the loving smile,the one that is entirely
devoted to others,especially that one
person.You really can't get them out of your
head,but then,you don't really want to.


What Kind of Smile are You?
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Your in Hogwarts!


Which Wizarding School Do You Go To?
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Friend Bear
You are everyone's ideal friend because you are
sincere and genuinely kind. Sometimes you worry
about your friends' problems so much, you
forget about your own responsibilities, which
can get you into trouble. For you, it's the
little things that really count. You also
happen to be the main driver of the Cloud Car.
No speeding!


Which Care Bear are you?
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Unwell
All day
Staring at the ceiling
Makin' friends with shadows on my wall
All night
Hearing voices telling
Me that I should get some sleep
Because tomorrow might be good for something
Hold on
Feeling like I'm headed for a
Breakdown and I don't know why

Well I'm not crazy
I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy
I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

Me, I'm talking to myself in public
And dodging glances on the train
And I know
I know they've all been talkin' bout me
I can hear them whisper
And it makes me think that there must be something wrong
With me
Out of all the hours thinkin
Somehow I've lost my mind

Well I'm not crazy
I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy
I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be

I've been talkin in my sleep
Pretty soon they'll come to get me
Yeah, they're takin' me away

Well I'm not crazy
I'm just a little unwell
I know right now you can't tell
But stay a while and maybe then you'll see
A different side of me
I'm not crazy
I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now you don't care
But soon enough you're gonna think of me
And how I used to be
Yeah, How I used to be
How I used to be, yeah
Well I'm just a little unwell
How I used to be
(A little unwell)
How I used to be
I'm just a little unwell

..::Matchbox Twenty::..

Quote of the day:
Footfalls echo in the memory Down the passage which we did not take Towards the door we never opened Into the rose-garden. My words echo Thus, in your mind.

i did one of da quiz frm an email sent by ma fren:

Wart's your favourite ice cream flavour? : Chocolate Chip

How do you eat an ice cream cone: Nibble

Wart is your favourite fruit?: Berry

How do you eat fried eggs: Yolk ferst

Da results dada~~:
You sincerely believe that everything around you is beautiful, even though other people may not notice. You are a determined person and set high goals for your life.

You are always wilful and most of the time, you are a stubborn person. But you love to work and are quite honest, which makes you good to get along with as a friend or lover.

You love the good life. You live extravagantly and like everything around you to be beautifully crafted. You are optimistic, have an excellent sense of humor and enjoy having your friends around you.

You are soft-minded. You find it's too hard to say "No" to others, especially when you are pushed. Quite often, you are taken advantage of because of your soft-minded nature.

Ma conclusion:
well.. tink it's kinda true... maybe u all shld try it out here!

Quote of the day:
It is by no means certain that our individual personality is the single inhabitant of these our corporeal frames... We all do things both awake and asleep which surprise us. Perhaps we have cotenants in this house we live in.

din feel like blogging todae... i heard tis song frm celine dion and i kinda dink it's quite nice so recommend it to y'all... maybe dat's how i feel now but i noe HE wun ask me to...

If you asked me to
Used to be that I believed in something,
Used to be that I believed in love,
It's been a long time since I've had that feelin',
I could love someone,
I could trust someone.
I said I'd never let nobody near my heart again, darlin',
I said I'd never let nobody in,
If you asked me to I just might change my mind,
And let you in my life forever,
If you asked me to I just might give my heart,
And stay here in your arms forever.
If you asked me to,
If you asked me to,
So now ever since I've been around you,
Can't go back the way and on my own Can't help feelin',
darlin', sinceI've found you,
That I've found my home,
That I'm finally home.
I said I'd never let nobody get to close to me, darlin',
I said I needed, needed to be free,
If you asked me to I just might change my mind,
And let you in my life forever,
If you asked me to I just might give my heart,
And stay here in your arms forever.
If you asked me to and I would give my world,
Little baby, I need you now,
Ask me to and I would do anything for you, baby,
For you, baby.
If you asked me to,
I'll put you in my life forever,
If you asked me to,
All you gotta do is ask me to,
If you want it I could give you my heart,
If you asked me to,
I'll give you anything that I say, baby,
If you asked me to,
I'll do anything that you want me to do, just ask me,
All you gotta do is ask me to,
If you asked me to,
I'll give my life,
All you gotta do is ask me to,
If you asked me to.

..::Celine Dion::..

Quote of the day:
Don't worry. Be happy.

heyz peepz... juz got ma hair dyed... mommy did it fer me.. and da result is like oka lor... not really obvious... i dink no one would noe i dyed ma hair lor... sighs... maybe i shld try more obvious color like purpur... but i dun wanna dye da same color as dat cheena girlfren of ma cuz... aiights...let's not tok abt it... granny is staying at our hse fer one nite... she sleeping in ma room and im sleeping in da stardee room todae... poor sis gotta sleep at da sofa 'coz granny slept in da middle of da bed (ma sis is supposed to sleep wif her...lolx)... well not as bad as i expected... she gave each of us fifty bucks to buy stuff man.... she ma saviour!!!!!! she noes im freaking broke...haha... thanks granny.... alrite shall blog laterz... miss ma nephew todae... notti notti Jaaron boi....

The Long Goodbye
I know they say if you love somebody
You should set them free (so they say)
But it sure is hard to do
Yeah, it sure is hard to do
And I know they say if they don't come back again
Then it's meant to be (so they say)
But those words ain't pulling me through
Cos I'm still in love with you
I spend each day here waiting for a miracle
But it's just you and me going through the mill
(climbin' up a hill)

This is the long goodbye
Somebody tell me why
Two lovers in love can't make it
Just what kind of love keeps breaking a heart?
No matter how hard I try
You're gonna make me cry
Come on, baby, it's over, let's face it
All that's happening here is a long goodbye

Sometimes I ask my heart did we really
Give our love a chance (just one more chance)
and I know without a doubt
I turned it inside out
And if we walked away
would make more sense (only self defense)
But it tears me up inside
Just to think we still could try
How long must we keep riding on a carousel
Going round and round and never getting anywhere?
(on a wing and prayer)

This is the long goodbye
Somebody tell me why
Two lovers in love can't make it
Just what kind of love keeps breaking a heart?
No matter how hard I try
You're gonna make me cry
Come on, baby, it's over, Let's face it
All that's happening here is the long goodbye

The long goodbye
The long goodbye
This is the long goodbye

Someone please tell me why

Are you ever coming back again
Are you ever coming back again
Are you ever coming back again
Guess I'm never coming back again

..:Ronan Keating:..

Quote of the day:
A relationship is like a rose, How long it lasts, no one knows;
Love can erase an awful past, Love can be yours, you'll see at last;
To feel that love, it makes you sigh,
To have it leave, you'd rather die;
You hope you've found that special rose,
'Cause you love and care for the one you chose.

juz got home not long ago.... cant stand da boredom at home so i went out to "window-shop" around at suntec city and marina square... sms bird to acc me... we had din at nooch den went to walk at Raffles City... saw Goh Chok Tong(did i get his name rite?) der... dunno wad ceremony la... step-out singapore i dink... den we went OP... tried on 2 boardshorts... kinda like both of dem but got no money to buy:( . lucky bird bought one of dem... den walked past Giordano Junior... was telling bird da tee was so cute and here came da sweet-toking of da sales-assistant... aiights... went to try.... altot i like da pink color tee alot but it reminds me of sumone... and i dun wanna be like her...*yucks* so i bought da yellow one in da end... den went Suntec... nuthing much der... juz da same old shops like TopShop, B.I.R.D, Mango, Tower Records, United of Benttons... got bored and went to sit at da Fountain of Wealth der... so tok a lil bit... abt him... and beach guy....new character comin in da story ar... lolx... tell y'all more wen we really had a date first....hah...

it's onli early afternoon and i tink ma mood is spoilt till da xtreme... firstly, jam called and told me he got remedial so he couldn't meet me... aiights....oh...ok...nvm... next itchy hand of mine went to read his blog... wtf... aiights aiights... concluded he likes HER~ yeah... whu da hell will so good keep giving surprises like breakfast and sending peep to sch... and making a heart shaped dunno wat fer her... ya ya watever.... why shld i get so worked up? he's not even mine... shldnt haf let him spoilt ma dae... he sucks.... i gonna stuck at home da whole dae again... sighs.... i betta blog later if not i'll juz start writing rubbish again...

Quote of the day:
Love does not begin and end the way we seem to think it does. Love is a battle, love is a war; love is a growing up.

erm...nuthing wrong wif ma blog now... juz finished a shower...smell sho sho nice now....hehez...*sniffs* sa juz left ma hse like half an hour ago? she came to edit her bloggie stuff... and also came to flirt wif ma nephew....lolx...j/k... todae is juz a normal public holidae or like a normal weekend... aunts, uncles, cousins and lil Jaaron came over to hang out... dey kinda no life la... but managed to sneak out fer 2 hrs lydat to meet lia at taka, in e end she tua me fer not bringing ma tees... sighs... she better bring dem tmrw.... well... tis is how no life i spent todae... tmrw shall be a dae of fun and laughter... going to da beach!!!!!! blog laterz... ciao peeps~~

sth wrong is wif ma blog... and i dunno wad's wrong... oh dear... wat shld i do now??? sighs...

Quote of the day:
If you love somebody, let them go. If they return, they were always yours. If they don't, they never were.

Stuck
I can’t get out of bed today or get you off my mind
I just can’t seem to find a way to leave the love behind
I aint trippin, I’m just missin
You know what I’m saying, you know what I mean

You kept me hangin on a string why you make me cry
I tried to give you everything but you just gave lies
I aint trippin, I’m just missin
You know what I’m saying, you know what I mean yeah

Every now and then when I’m all alone
I’ll be wishing you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool there’s nothin I can do
I’m such a fool for you

I can’t take it what am I waiting for
My heart still breakin I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it the way I could before
I hate you, but I love you
But I can’t stop thinkin of you
It’s true I’m stuck on you

My loves a broken record that’s skippin in my head
I keep singin yesterday why we gotta play these games we play
I aint trippin, I’m just missin
You know what I’m saying, you know what I mean yeah

Every now and then when I’m all alone
I’ll be wishing you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool

I can’t take it what am I waiting for
My hearts still breakin I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it the way I could before
I hate you, but I love you
But I can’t stop thinkin’ of you
It’s true I’m stuck on you

Every now and then when I’m all alone
I’ll be wishing you would call me on the telephone
Say you want me back but you never do
I feel like such a fool there’s nothin I can do
I’m such a fool for you

I can’t take it what am I waiting for
My hearts still breakin I miss you even more
And I can’t fake it the way I could before
I hate you, but I love you
I can’t stop thinkin of you
I hate you, but I love you
I can’t stop thinkin of you
I don’t know what to do
I’m stuck on you

..::Stacie Orrico::..

Quote of the day:
Life consists not in holding good cards but in playing those you hold well.

hey got ma blog a new look!!! nice anot??? hehe.... bored bored bored....

todae is such a boring dae... woke up at 4 after a long nite chat wif sa... been home da whole dae... peeping into other ppl's website and blog.... hehex... and realise things dat kinda surprise me... not up to ma expectations...lolx... rite sa? *winks* well well.... i noe it's not rite... but it's so tempting when ppl do links on deir website and i kinda accidentally click on da wrong button and der it brought me to some site... dun worry... not porn sites... lolx... hope tmrw turns out to be a betta dae... ciaoz~~~

such a nice sweet song this is.. the lyrics are just so nice

You
Who makes
The sun light up my shadows
When the darkness tries to follow me
Who makes
The air that bring me life
So I can breathe the love that's given to me

You make everything good
Everything wonderful
You grace my days
And heaven fills my view
Let's forever sing
You make everything pure
Everything beautiful
You make me see the only thing that's true
It's you

Who makes
The waters of my sorrow part
And leads the gladness into my heart
Who makes
The rivers run that wash away
And clean my soul to make a new start

You hung the moon
You placed the stars that shine your love for me
I hope all that I do
Will show reflections of you

..::Jaci Velasquez::..

Quote of the day:
Regrets are idle; yet history is one long regret.
Everything might have turned out so differently.

woah woah~~~~~~~~~ seven of us gathered at bird's hse todae agaiN!!!! pretty cool huh.... so tiring went swimming in da morning den meet da rest and slack at bird's hse until 10 plus...

Quote of the day:
If you don't learn to laugh at troubles, you won't have anything to laugh at when you grow old.

Angel
It's been five months
since you went away
Left without a word,
nothing to say(nothin to say)
When I was the one,
who gave you my heart and soul,
but it wasn't good enough for you
No..Ohhh
So I asked God

God send me an Angel
from the Heavens above
Send me an Angel to heal my broken heart,
From being in love,
'cause all I dooo...is cry(is cry)
God send me an Angel
to wipe the tears from my eyes

And I know I might sound crazy,
but after all that I still loved you.
You wanna come back in my life,
but now theres somethin I have to do.
I have to tell the one that I once adored,
that they cant have my love no more,
My heart cant take no more lies,
and my eyes are all out of cries
soooo......God

God send me an Angel
from the Heavens above
Send me an Angel to heal my broken heart,
From being in love,
'cause all I dooo...is cry(is cry)
God send me an Angel
to wipe the tears from my eyes

Now you had me on my knees
Begging God please
to send you back to me
I couldnt eat
I couldnt sleep
even made me feel like I could not breathe
one night all I wanted to do
was feel your touch
and to give you all of my love
but you took my love for granted
want my lovin now
but you cant have it
ohhhhh God!

God send me an Angel
from the Heavens above
Send me an Angel to heal my broken heart,
From being in love,
'cause all I dooo...is cry(is cry)
God send me an Angel
to wipe the tears from my eyes

Ohhhh God!

Send me an Angel(send me an angel)
An Angel!
Wipe the tears from my eyes
God send me an Angel from the Heavens above
Send me an Angel(to heal my broken heart)
God send me an Angel
from being in love
send me(an Angel)
ohh God!
send me an Angel
send me(an Angel)
(an Angel)

..::Amanda Perez::..

well... premier league had finally ended... man utd won everton... man utd is da CHAMPIONS... yeah.... todae aint an interesting dae... wif dim sum in da morning wif ma familie and godma.... den came home and sleep... and in da nite a familie din again wif ma granny... but tml shld be an interesting one... looking forward to tml... going swimming.... hurray hurray~~~~~~~~

Quote of the day:
The mind is the limit.
As long as the mind can envision the fact that you can do something,
you can do it-as long as you really believe 100 percent.

I lost myself
I lost my soul
I lost my spirit
And i dunno where i left it

No matter how hard i tried
I juz couldnt seem to find

I lost tat twinkle
I lost my shine
And my hopes are fading

Making me unable to give
Tat sparkling twinkle of mine

wth.... todae went town to buy present for Mother's Day... bought a pink shirt for her... gave it to her juz now... and she couldnt wear! darn it... nvm... worst still got SCOLDED for nuthing... wtf... scolded me for wasting money... say i got no money still buy wat present... and i was like... full of vugularity filled me... juz feel like pouring watever i noe out of ma mouth.... ya ya ya.... i din but juz showed her ma black face... *griNs* and she exchanged da present my sis and i gave her wif ma godma... she rather take tat cheapo tee... rather den tat $69 shirt... freaking mad now...

tryin to use some of ma inspiration to compose a poem... i noe it sucks... but trying ma best... so here it goes:

Strangers Again
Da moment i saw u
I realised our drifted distance
So close yet so far
Without any toking at all
Not even saying Hello
Or a smile on our face
So wat if u saw me
U wudn't care anyway
Things are different
Unlike da past
We are back to strangers again

Quote of the day:
M-O-T-H-E-R
"M" is for the million things she gave me,
"O" means only that she's growing old,
"T" is for the tears she shed to save me,
"H" is for her heart of purest gold;
"E" is for her eyes, with love-light shining,
"R" means right, and right she'll always be,
Put them all together, they spell "MOTHER,"
A word that means the world to me.

juz got home... so i had missed one dae of blogging.... but never mind... guess i had a wonderful time todae... altot dat f*rking vb paper was so difficult but we managed to "kill" it or rather it "killed" us.... everyone left da room before 11.15am... den we went to catch movie, "Anger Management", which was alrite onli.... not realli dat farnie... and not forgetting going to da arcade to play puzzle fighter.... hehz.... den during da evening like 5 plus... we went simply thai to haf din.... followed by walking to "durian head"... were der crapping and playing.... sa and yun jiang was quite "high" den... abt 8 went over to one fullerton... continue chatting and playing.... after dat went over to boat quay's coffee bean to haf cheesecake.... dat's how da first dae of da post examination activities began....

NEW HAIRPENING???
saw kel's new hair style... it's juz like a foresee of how he looks like wen he goes ns... dunno why.... da moment i saw him i kept laffin... he muz be quite pissed off wif me... :X.... guess who we saw at boat quay??? we saw worm.... another fellow wif new hairstyle.... he looks weird in dis new hairstyle... look like a kiddie??? haha... yeah... durin tis hols im gonna change my hairstyle too... going to cut short... maybe cut a little bit onli... dunno yet.... den im gonna dye ma hair.... hehz

Quote of the day:
We live in a moment of history where change is so speeded up that we begin to see the present only when it is already disappearing.

Eventful dae???
hee...hah.... tml is da last paper... same as usual todae finished paper din go home straight.... instead sa and i told bird to go town and haf lunch and after dat we would go home... but unfortunately we din go home... lolx... we had lunch at Jack's place... da one next to Hereen... and dat's da first and da last time i would be going... lousy service... alrite... after lunch, went to far east plaza to walk around... so nuthing much to see at far east (maybe der are and juz dat we are freaking broke... no money to shop dat's why ......) next stop we went TOPSHOP @ wisma... (at tis point i got a msg for sa: cannot dun write in ma blog la... guess it's da climax for da dae... rite bird? *winks*).... so we went der to shop for lingerie.... yeah....im serious.... well... it's farn to shop for lingerie.... altot people cant get to see but we ourself do! so doesnt tat more matters? maybe... *ponders* we can go for lingerie shopping da next time, how abt dat gurls? hee... okok.... beta stop toking abt all these b4 sa says im horny... but hey... she sounds more horny den i.... hahaha.... esp those quizes she was doing ytd nite... tempting me to do also....lolx.... shall stop here for todae... cya....

p.s.: i got a bar fridge in ma room and it's time for gurls' partee!!! :p

Quote of the day:
If wishes were horses, beggars would ride.

woah~ finished watching bachelor.... Aaron is such a POWER PACT guy....wOO Woo.... lolx... he's good looking, muscular, GOOD AT FRENCH KISSING TOO!!! darn it... saw him kissing so many gurls sia... *jealous* he looks so skillful too... if i am able to french kiss wif him.... wOw.... makes ma knees goes weak man.... lolx... but on da other hand.... he's a jerk... making so many gers cried... lolx.... as da chinese saying goes "Gers juz like bad guys"....hahaa..... nuthing much happening todae... went bedok to stardee wif yun jiang and liyi... hmm... not a successful one??? lolx... in da end discussing of wat activities to have after examz.... =p so so so.... gotta mug into books now... need to stardee some theory for webp... ciao~~

p.s.: bird dun fren u le... put me aeroplane again :(

Quote of the day:
There are three things men can do with women: love them, suffer for them, or turn them into literature.

"Treasure life in yourself and you give it to others, give it to others and it will come back to you. For life, like love, cannot thrive inside its own threshold but is renewed as it offers itself. Life grows as it is spent."

.::Ardis Whitman::.

Quote of the day:
Throw your dreams into space like a kite,
and you do not know what it will bring back,
a new life,
a new friend,
a new love,
a new country.

well well... two more papers to go and i will be free... budden now im alreadee in da holidae mood! juz dun wanna heck so much abt webp and vb... overall... webp is juz a whole chunk of html codes.... nuthing to stardee abt! lalala.... i noe u're quite surprised rite??? y'all muz be saying jasmine change alreadee! no long dat hardworking jasmine... now im juz someone who dun care abt stardees... hmm.... reason? coz i dun wanna feel dat stressful??? LOL... i noe i noe...lame excuse rite... budden i realise stardee also lydat dun stardee also lydat... den i shall stop killing ma brain cells stardying.... keke.... okaoka.... yunjiang and bird msg me in msn alreadee... catch up wif y'all later....

P.S: Arsenal lost... Man Utd are da champions... it's time for Man Utd to get back wart dey belong....

Quote of the day:
Go confidently in the direction of your dreams.
Live the life you have imagined.

In Revolution Studios’ riotous new comedy Anger Management, Adam Sandler and Jack Nicholson star as patient and therapist, though at times it’s hard to tell which one is which.

After a misunderstanding aboard an airplane that escalates out of control, the mild-mannered Dave Buznik (Adam Sandler) is ordered by Judge Daniels (Lynne Thigpen) to attend anger management sessions run by Doctor Buddy Rydell (Jack Nicholson), which are filled with highly eccentric and volatile men and women.

Buddy’s unorthodox approach to therapy is confrontational and abrasive and Dave is bewildered by it. Then, after yet another mishap, Judge Daniels orders Dave to step up his therapy or wind up in jail. So, Buddy moves in with Dave to help him battle his inner demons. Buddy himself has no inner demons since he acts out at every opportunity and that includes making lewd comments about Dave’s girlfriend Linda (Marisa Tomei) and goading Dave into confronting every slight, past or present, head-on.

But Buddy finally goes too far and Dave must decide whether to crawl back into his shell or stand up for himself. Could it be that Buddy’s confounding and contradictory treatment is just what the doctor ordered?

Sounds interesting???
anyone wanna go watch??? It's been a long time dat i had catch a movie...

Golden Village website has a new image!
todae log into gv website... realised dey changed their image... from red to black.... well, i like da one now... da display is nicer... Keep out da good work! =)

hey y'all... wat do u tink of tis name, trenyce? unique?nice?sweet? tag ur opinons in da tag-board! hehe... i was tinking dat in further i will name ma daughter trenynce... wat do y'all tink? LOL~ getting a little crazy these few daes la... keep tinking of nice names and in future it will come in handy! esp when frens need a name for deir child or cousins need to haf a name for ma niece or nephew... or maybe juz for ma kiddies???

Quote of the day:
Love's sweet bells are ringing again.
The giving of love is an education in itself.

im sho sho tired... havent been sleeping since last nite... was on da fone wif yiwei until 4 plus in da morning.... actually if ma mom din wake up we wouldn't haf put down da fone... *cheeky smile* den came over to ma new hse... ANNOUNCEMENT!!!! i'll be staying in ma new hse frm todae onwards... hse telephone no still remains da same... after dat went to help over at my aunt's wedding... it's a little bit no life one... everything inorganised.... poor planning....*sigh* making of us wait for nothing and waste time onli.... so in da afternoon rushed back home and bathed... headed out to bugis to meet sa... once reached der realised seiyu got SALE!!!! so wen sa reached, i bought a Levi's Tee... it's black in color wif a butterfly in da middle.... actually come to tink of it now... white looks nicer... but nvm... been aiming for tat tee for quite long and since der's 20% den buy la... if dun buy i will regret one whole lifetime man!! LOL~ after dat... wen to Anna Sui counter asked da salesger to put some make up for me... so later go wedding dinner i dun haf to make up for myself *sheepish grins* and in da end i bought a creamy eye shadow frm her la... after da shopping, we walked to chijmes... great ambience... so attracted to tat place...esp tat church... how i wish i can haf a church wedding at chijmes...hehe... den acc sa to city hall mrt and later walked back alone to allson hotel for dat lousy dinner.... and tis was how i spent ma Saturday... quite an eventful day arh???

Born to try
Doing everything that I believe in
Going by the rules that I've been taught
More understanding of what's around me
And protected from the worlds of love

All that you see is me
And all I truly believe

That I was born to try
I've learned to love
Be understanding
And believe in life
But you've got to make choices
Be wrong or right
Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like

But I was born to try

No point in talking what should have been
And regretting the things that went on
Life's full of mistakes, destinies and fate
Remove the clouds, look at the bigger picture

And all that you see is me
And all I truly believe

That I was born to try
I've learned to love
Be understanding
And believe in life
But you've got to make choices
Be wrong or right
Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like

But I was born to try

All that you see is me
And all I truly believe
All that you see is me
And all I truly believe

That I was born to try

I've learned to love
Be understanding
And believe in life
But you've got to make choices
Be wrong or right
Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like

But I was born to try

But you've got to make choices
Be wrong or right
Sometimes you've got to sacrifice the things you like

But I was born to try

.::Delta Goodrem::.

Quote of the day:
There are no mistakes, no coincidences. All events are blessings given to us to learn from.

One more paper down
Yep.... juz finished my accounting paper like a few hours ago... well more or less i can say it's an alrite paper... but i still anyhow bluff thru my way... *sighz* haf not been putting in effort in ma past 2 papers... yesterdae nite i was on da fone wif sa until 5am in da morning den woke up at 1 todae... tot i would stardee but i juz flipped thru ma notes and dun gif it a damn.... Juz heck la... noe how to do den do dunno den anyhow do... and now i juz felt GUILTY GUILTY GUILTY.... im juz not me.... where had da real me gone to??? *paused for a moment* maybe i shall put in some effort in da next paper, database managment system(dbms)... at least i noe sth in mind of wat's all about... but tml gonna be a busy dae for me... and sun alone i dun tink it's enuff for me to stardee all da chapter.... oh ma.... wat should i do? felt so helpless now....

Post-Exams Activities
yeah... we had been standing outside da examination room juz now to discuss wat and wen shall we start all our partees... Yun Jiang alreadee got da mood alreadee while da rest were still tinking of wad to do wif dbms? okok.... we got lots of stuffs to do... busy busy busy... we going chalets, chocolate buffet, clubbing, sentosa.... well... gotta spend lots of money... but first of all.... i need to find money and dat means i gotta WORK!!! so can u gals wait fer me??? hehez... catch up wif ya guys laterz...

Quote of the day:
The brighter you are, the more you have to learn.

All About Loving You
Looking at the pages of my life
Faded memories of me & you
Mistakes I know I’ve made a few
I took some shots that fail from time to time baby
You were there to pull me through
Been around that block a time or two
I’m gonna lay it on the line
Ask me how I’ve come this far
The answer’s written in my eyes

Every time I look at you
Baby I see something new
It takes me higher than before
It makes me want you more
I don’t want to sleep tonight
Dreaming’s just a waste of time
When I look at what my life’s been coming to
I’m all about loving you

I’ve lived I’ve loved I’ve lost I’ve paid some dues
And baby we’ve been to hell and back again
Through it all you’re always my best friend
For all the words I didn’t say
and all the things I didn’t do
tonight I’m gonna find a way

Every time I look at you
Baby I see something new
It takes me higher than before
It makes me want you more
I don’t want to sleep tonight
Dreaming’s just a waste of time
When I look at what my life’s been coming to
I’m all about loving you

you can take this world away and everything I am
Leave the lines upon my face
All about loving you
I’m all about
I’m all about
I’m all about loving you

Every time I look at you
Baby I see something new
It takes me higher than before
It makes me want you more
I don’t want to sleep tonight
Dreaming’s just a waste of time
When I look at what my life’s been coming to
I’m all about loving you
I’m all about loving you

.::Jon Bon Jovi::.

HAPPY LABOUR DAY!!! yep.... juz woke up not long ago to watch ENERGY @ Channel U... f*rking hungwee now... i had been hungwee since last nite... wonder if der's anyone sweet to buy me breakfast or maybe brunch la... -ponders- haha... tml is ACCOUNTING paper... and i dunno where to start from... *griNs* Still dunno whether wan to study theory anot... coz tat's 15 marks... Hopefully it's an easy paper and no CARELESS MISTAKES.... yesh.... i hate myself sometimes... for making stupid careless mistakes... hai... it's a nite paper...(6-8.10pm).... dun tink i can make it in time to come home and watch the 9pm show at Channel 8... =( well, gotta go do some packing to shift to ma new hse...ciao~~

Quote of the day:
It is not in the stars to hold our destiny but in ourselves.